Kehilangan

Farahzaki adalah seorang yang sangat takut pada kehilangan. i don't know why I feel like I wanted to cry right now. I don't even know the exact things that cause me to feel this way.. it's just like everything seems like it's not right and everything was scattered around all over the place but the worst part is that I don't know what it is..I don't know why..I just felt lonely sometimes but I know I'm not alone. it's just that, that feelings suddenly popped out into my mind without any reason..I just don't know.. I really feels like my heart is hurt but I DON'T KNOW WHY..I just miss my DAD.. He's admitted into the hospital but you know what? I DON'T EVEN GET THE CHANCE OF SEEING HIM because I can't. I got 4 days break but I can't go home because I needed to attend the debate training..I mean like, how would you feel if you're at my place? it's just that I miss him..seriously I do.. I am worried sick about my dad.. you know he's getting old and he always got sick and I am worried about him..but I could do nothing about it..I am afraid of not just losing him but all of my family..sometimes I just think what am I going to do without them? they're my strength, my happiness and they're the colours of my life eventhough sometimes we would fight and problems arise but hey! they're my family.. they always been there for me and no one could do as much as they did for me..no one could ever replace their place in my heart..